Archive for September, 2014

Transformers 3

After all these years, I have worked really hard towards hoping that I head towards the right direction. A place where I think I would’ve made a difference, a place where I thought I would be happy. I’ve made some sacrifices, but I’ve also gained a lot in return. It’s been slowly getting better so far… but I just can’t deny this feeling I have within me.

Am I happy? I would reply, Yes. But if you were to ask me if I was content, the answer would be No. In many ways now, I know I should feel content and yet, deep down in my guts I just can’t shake it.
This personality trait of mine has been good and bad. Good in the way that it has constantly pushed me to strive for more and strive for better. Even in the face of giving up, it’s helped me to push on. But the bad way? It’s like a weak acid covering everything that is me. It’s slowly eating away my happiness, it’s slowly eating away empathy, and it’s slowly eating away my patience.

I had the TV playing in the background and Transformers 3 was on. I wasn’t really paying any attention as I was on my iPad. Later in the night, there was this song that had been replaying in the back of my mind, and it took me awhile to realize that it was from T3 the Movie which had been on earlier. It was like the song was speaking to me…

 

LINKIN PARK – Iridescent

When you were standing in the wake of devastation

When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown

And with the cataclysm raining down

Insides crying, “Save me now!”

You were there, impossibly alone

 

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go. Let it go

 

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel

As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars

You felt the gravity of tempered grace

Falling into empty space

No one there to catch you in their arms

 

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go. Let it go

 

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go. Let it go

 

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

 

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go. Let it go.

 

 And yet, I’m still having difficulties letting it go…